YOUR BABY part 5

January
I went out for spent a new year with akash, martin, kiresha and anna for watched the fire works show at great city square. After we back home from the square and blew our trumpet, we were so happy. Along the journey we skipped away from all the crowded place and pupils. Akash my arm all the time we stayed in the square. He told me that he was afraid if i getting lost there or separated from others. I hold anna’s arm so then. We gathered at the square at 9 pm. When mid night came, and the firework started to fly up on the sky. I imagine that i would see his beutifull eyes and his sweetest smile that allways given to me when we meet each other. When all the crowded sound of all the trumpet spreaded loudly from everywhere. I saw so big fireworks with white, blue and green colour in the sky above me. i got a nut thrown to my head and cheek, and startled me, i hold the nut and found out who thrown it, i saw forward and found him stood me ahead. He smiled at me and blew his trumpet to my nouse, then laughed me slowly.
“ Do u spy on me? “ asked me slowly to sunny when i saw rashad laughed to me so.
“see...” answered me and his finger pointed to 2 little girl and an old man.
“they are devi and sarah that u ever told to me? ur uncle’s daughter? And he is ur granddad? “confirmed me.
“ all right...i didnt do anything to search u heyyy...i just follow them and when i stood here i see u on my face. An accidentally event, ” explained him with bright face.
I smiled back to him and i saw akash went out with kiresha to buy something over there near the street. Sunny pushed my hand and asked me to walk to his granddad. That old man smiled and offered to shake my hand.
“ assalamualekum, sir..” accosted me.
“walekumsalam wr wb....”smiled him to me.
“i m sunny’s friend...my name is raisha, u could call me rais or aisha...how are you? “
“ i know ur name raisha, and i ever saw ur pics at my grandson’s mobile...my name is sidiqque, u could call me doctor siddique, i m a chief surgeon of khana city hospital. I heard from sunny that u are studying at medicine too. I m his grandpa.” Told him happily.
“ he had told u baut me sir...when did he tell u baut me? i just passed 5 month at uni. still at 1st semester.”i stared at sunny and he gave me a big smile.
“ he told me baut u almost everyday, he moved from london at his 2nd year of his studying at cambridge and i asked him to accompany me.”explained him to me,
“ i just knew baut it sir..” told me and his granddad offered me a roasted corn. I meant he bought one for me, rashad was came with his family too and they talked with sunny. Then dr siddique joined them, i sit beside sunny and when his granddad talked with akash’s parent. He took my corn and ate it, ate my rest and pinched my nose. I pinched his nose back.
“ haloo..aisha. dr siddiqie told us baut u, this is the 1st time he took a girl and introduced her to us. Dont let a man stole ur focused to study and turned ur future...” joked rasha’s daddy.
“ Certainly sir...we are good friend, rashad and sunny. i m sunny’s partner on SO at uni as his assistant and i m partner of rashad in musical project at uni so. “
“oh...great girl. So u are composer too same with rashad?”asked rashad’s mom to me.
“ hmmm... rashad teach me baut composer too...”
“she is studying at medicine..”told dr siddique to them.
They were talking crowdedly and sunny watched them with many smiling. I turned my focus to his smile and stared at his face.
“ what ???” asked him to me.
“what? So u were ex student of cambridge? “
“ hmmm.. not at all,,i studied at computer technology too. But i left it at the end of 3rd semester and moved here. grandpa stayed alone at his house.” Told him.
“ All your family are staying in london, right now? “ asked me to him.
“ yes.. my dad and mom worked there. my mom is a nurse ..and i m the oldest, still have one brother 12 years old and my sister 17 years old.I moved to here when i was 4th year of primary school and studied here till 2nd grade of secondary school. Then home to london and did my high school there till i back here gain 2,5 years ago. “
“ will u move gain after finish ur study here?”
“ no...my uncle is working as army colonel. He had checked me and he thought i could join him in army technology department. I mostly consider it all the time and daddy never mind if i join to army. This country is his nation.ALLAH knows the best for me,he will guide where i have to go..right? u dont forget to pray me.this year is my last grade. Prexy has accepted my research proposal.”
“ i allways pray for u everytime, sunny.”told me to him.
I heard my cell ringing, kiresha called me, i told sunny baut it and asked permition to sunny and rashad’s family.
“ dr siddique and mr and mrs brown i have to back to my family over there. Thanks alot and so great to meet u all. Take care and see you later all. Wassalamualekum..”
“walekumsalam...” answered them all. Sunny help me passed the crowded and when i almost crossed the big three to meet my gang and my family.
“ rais..good night..and see you tomorrow, if u will sleep after home from here..have a nice dream, my lady. “told him and hug me tightly.
I smiled to him. He bend his head and i kiss his forehead.
“ where do u come from?” asked akash to me.
“from looking arround, bought a roasted corn. i got a new friend, he was a surgeon. Chief surgeon in khana city hospital,we talked a bit long time. sorry for making u wait..”
“Lets go home..”
Kiresha’s parent joined us too, martin and akash will stayed at my uncle’s home. Akash still hold my arm everywhere and i saw sunny stared me from his place. when i reached at my home, i type sms to sunny.
“akash, martin and kiresha’s family will stay and camping at my home tonight. We do barbeque and roasting a big chicken...grandpa asked me to invite u to come, dont worry baut akash, he is only very overprotective. “
2 minutes later i got his replying sms...
“rashad sleep at my house and we just on the way to home. But grandpa allways busy taste all food along this sidewalk street . Enjoy ur party,dear...nite..”
I smiled read that, when i type “nite too...wish tom will be sunny shined as bright as ur sunny smile..
I got one more sms suddenly, i opened it,,from sunny gain...he typed “ but i wonder and this odd mind is being back and forth in my brain, why did akash holding ur arm like a mom holding her litle kids everywhere, coz by ur innocent heart?”
Akash appeared behind me and peeped to read those sms. I shocked and hide my cell on my pocket.
“ wow..i got a critical...from ur boss, didnt him?”
“ no..he saw us on firework show at city square and sms me that.”explained me with sweaty face.
He robbed my cell and took it away from me, and then i didnt know where did he skipped away. I realized that since the first time i marked him a honour as my superfriend, i couldnt keep a secret from him. Like what all the things he did to me shared me baut all his life and everything. It was happen at december when i often accompany him with sending email when he worked at library till 9 pm. We talked many things baut our life and he read my diary at blogger. My private diary at blogger and i permited him to wrote there anytime he wanted to do. I called him my superfriend.....
When i found my cell beside his pillow at the floor, he slept beside grandpa,uncle and martin on the air bed laid in the living room. I took it and he opened his eyes narrowly and sided ways his back....
“ he typed muachhh...muachh..hug u my lady blah5x...mean he really2 did all of that on u? kissed u? kissed ur what? Lip?if ur honour of mine as ur superfriend that we will open up our mind and if u really2 trust me as ur bestfriend like what u ever said.. its ok, rais. I only scarefull if he hurt u at last...”said him slowly.
“ he just kissed my forehead,,but he didnt say that he love me yet. Thats it..”
“he wont tell u that...dont expect alot..he determined to do straight way of his dreaming and aim, he will sacrifice everything such love..maybe he feels that but he wont confess it. “
“i know..”
“ dont wanna see u hurt, rais. If u meet better guys better u leave him.”adviced him and hold my arm.
“ good night...” asked me and stood back to my bedroom. Kiresha and anna slept slept there and i just finished all washed all the kitchen utensils and cleaning the room.
When i open my inbox, i saw some new sms from sunny that didnt read by me yet. Akash did that.....
Sunny : what do u mean? I think this sms words didnt type by u..i dont see ur silhouet in this statement. Are u ok?if he ever told u that u are like his heroin?impossible this sms typed by u...coz i know u are very know the truth.
Sunny : leave it. we know what we do, this kind of theme not quite enough to discuss in sms. Remember our dreaming...remember when i closed my eyes and i asked u to do the same thing and to make sure that we ve done all the best that we do for our heart, our parent and our family.
Sunny : look straighly at my eyes,dear...hug u. i do trust u, if akash is one part and important thing in ur friendship life that u ever had at all ur age. If u trust him i trust him too, what ? he ever tried to kissed u? ur lip?awww...his overprotective subjected for specific aim to u? he wont be..
I opened up the sentbox and read all what akash typed to sunny.
(sent 01.49AM): sunny, i cant stand for someone that couldnt accept sincerely and trust our friendship, he is my superfriend and meaningfull to me. but he ever tried to kiss my lip...but we were bestfriend and i m scared if i m in relationship with him i will be loose him. What do u think it, baut me and baut us?tell me honestly.
(sent 02.07AM): i dunno...i tried to read his eyes but i still confuse..i cant ask him baut it,right? Just answer me ur mind baut my last asking. Please...
(sent 02.55 AM): we know what we do? Do what? Mean i m not special for u? just tell me the truth. Nothing change between us.
My breathe accelerated alot, i called sunny’s cell directly after read all of that. he accepted it and i hardly opened my lip to spoke up.
“ hi...” opened me for conversation.
“ have u slept yet? “ asked him directly.
“no...something happen...”
“i know...”
“ when i typed sms for u after i got home from city square, akash peeped to read ur sms at my mobile behind me. and after that, my cell robbed and skipped away whenever i dunno. I just found it beside his pillow in living room.”
“ hm...may i hacked ur blogger? I mean ur diary. If u permit me, i just wanna know his reason.”
“ yeah..i will sms u my id and password after this calling.”
“ok..what do u feel now? Calm down,raisha, i heard ur breathe so fast like that.”
“any idea?”
“let we do tahajud prayer. Wish u’ll feel better.”
“certainly..”
I stopped the call and sms him my blogger id and pass, walked to bathroom for wudhu for tahajud prayer with him with different place. after that i remember that i could closed my eyes and sleeping,
At the morning when the adzan of dawn prayer sound and break the quiet night..i heard sunny calling me and i accepted it...
“ prayer time, dear...”
“thanks for wake me up, sunny...”
“ u sound so sleepy...saw ur pc, i gave u webcalling, accept it. “
I moved my lappy and click his webcam call at my hotmail id. Suddenly i saw his face with neat moslem shirt and saroong. And pici (moslem head cup hat) and fresh face.
“ see what so sleepy u are..wudu now, we will do jamaat prayer. Using this webcam. Wow...ur curly friend and anna slept so tightly...and have u heard adzan in ur area?”
“ yes,,,a litle when u called me, “
“let me adzan for u...open ur eyes now,,,”
Then he adzan in fronth of me in cell and i left my room for wudu, when he finished his adzan and i didnt enter the bathroom yet. I saw akash opened his eyes a bit. I remember all sms he sent to sunny and i shouted to him.
My cell thrown to the tip of the air bed,
“why akash? why akash? i ve seen all u typed to sunny, u shouldnt doing that...”
“i wanna know the truth..all his feeling maybe to set u free,”
“but why did u need to lie to him...u never try to kissed me before..”
“i dont lie..coz i will prove it..” told him and took his face so closer to my face..he said “remember what u wrote on ur diary, u said that if u trust someone to read it mean he will own ur heart, if he allways make u happy and understand and respectfull all ur mind. I did it all...didnt i?told him slowly and his nose touched my nose. I surprised and pushed my face away from his face...
“u dont trust me? u wont do ur own swear to ur heart?”
“but u dont understand me so well, and respectfull my mind enough akash..yes, u are so important and u are my only one superfriend and u are my trustest friend..”said me
He touched my cheek with his right hand and his other hand hold my arm...
“please...i beg u, trust me..i wont let u alone and allways repair all my incomplete understanding and respectfull as ur saying baut me.”begged him to me.
“ u asked me to love u?”
“u have to,,,do ur promise to ur self...”
“i..”
“u....have to..u have to do,,”
“u force me?” i sit up away a step of him.
“please...i beg u, if u dont do this..it hurt me..”
“if u force me u will hurt me too...”
“what? Why? Coz that guy? That looser guy? Who allways keep quiet everything baut his huggle, his kisses and his romantically. He isnt gentleman, he didnt say that he love u, he is a looser,he wont confess u at public. I can read a guy so, not only u.”
I ve taken my cell and hold it, the calling from ash still on..akash still talked his words...
“rais...its not fair..u allways say that u trust me, ur writing, ur saying are all bullshit...u think that guy will behave u as good as me...”
“i trust him more,,i have to do dawn prayer..i will wudu.”
He got frozen and i left him to bathroom. When i entered my bedroom and took my prayer robe and wore it. i saw sunny bearing his sajadah and echo the qomat...we did jamaat dawn prayer, when i finish my prayer and said salam. I saw akash and martin stood at my door and said good bye to got home. i walked and picked them out.
“ u do jamaat prayer with SO president?”
“yes...oftenly allways do..” said me coldly.
“ smile!!!” asked akash directly to me and shaked my hand. We do our friendship poke and he pinched my nose.
“ forget baut what we saying baut this morning. If u smile i smile, if u happy i am happy..lady rais.”
I smiled and surprised and he ride away from my sight. I gave him my best smile and run back to my bed room.
“where do u go? “asked sunny at pc cam.
I smiled and put off my robe.
“good morning, i have to back sleep. I ve cleaned all home and my job here. dont disturb me ok..wake me up at dohar prayer.”
“ me too..”said him immediatly.
I closed the cam and laid in my bed. i just slept for a hour lastnight. I felt so sleepy. After the mid day and me went to beach with anna and enjoyed our holiday. Sunny told me that he was busy play station with rashad at his calling, at that time so,rashad told me that he need my help at her sister’s wedding. He asked me to play organ for his singing for his sister at reception party at Saturday.
At the day after....after finished classes at uni, SO’s room
When i walked out from the room, i took a cold water on the dispenser and i was there with 3 friends of SO organitation member. Sunny walked from his classes to our place and i saw a tall white guy stoon in fronth of announcement board near my place. sunny told his salam and i answered him,
“raisha..aisha..”called someone touched my shoulder and tried to hug me, i revealed stepped away of him. I shocked and my body trembled knew who was that guy standing in fronth of me.
“ neil...” called me shockly.
“sugar... “ he wore a dark grey coat and using an insigne of a company which he worked as manager in a big jewel company in this city. he seemed charming and adorable with very atlethich body.
“my thesis proposal just accepted by the rectoral and i will start it this month. Starting my doctoral studying at trade management, dear. Dont u agree that it is a so flawless destiny between us.” Told him so confidence and happily.
“ neil...i have to go,” said me with running away of him. I back to my classes and i saw akash and martin prepared to ride home. i met them in the park and i took my scooty too.
“rais..see what i have...this is my idea with kiresha, and 2 gals that i ever told to u. fatima and veronica. See this..” offered martin to me, he showed me his mobile and show me a 5 minutes video mobile. I watched and more surprised alot and my tears dropped out so much washed all my cheeks.
I exchanged my mobile to martin’s and removed his sim card cell to mine. Then i told him that i would take his cell for a day and gave it back to him tomorrow, i ride home directly as fast as i could do. When i reached my home i got 2 sms and 2 unreceived calling.
Sunny: i m typing an email to u right now, wish u all right and i miss u alot, and please read my email asap to make me stop worrying baut u.
96xxxxxxxx: my sugar...please...give me a chance and let me tell u everything, and clear all this misunderstanding, i never leave u...
I deactivated my cell and started to close my eyes and i sms akash,martin and kiresha to came and buy me an ice cream to night.
When anna woke me up to dinner, i did magrib prayer and i saw my bestfriends came and did what i want, came and take a big ice cream. Uncle and aunty went to nighbour home for a family party, and granpa joined them so. Anna and me used a stereo to do karaoke and we sung all our favorite song and they made me forgot my sorrow for a while. At 08.45 pm they went home after wasted all my aunty;s dinner menu.
I remember sunny’s email and opened my inbox. I got a link of my diary web and clicked it. sunny wrote his email inside my diary and it was long letter.
Monday, 2nd january 2009
When u run away from so room, i saw that guy whose named neil. Ur ex bf right? He seem sad and i tried to called ur name,rais. But u were further space maybe, neil said hi to me and asked me wheter i know u or not, i said yes and i told him that we are a good friend. Then he talked so long time and i thought added with some bullshit baut u and him and begged me to tell him ur address. I told him i dont know ur house. But shane told me that he got ur mobile from fajr. I ve known ur story with neil completely since yesterday when i called ur early diary at ur web. So dont ever get doubt baut me, dear...
On the way i walked arround to found rashad, i passed a karate field, ur bestfriend named karasha called me and warned me too. She asked me to not hurt u at all in all aspect. She said she watching us...does it related akash? i heard a bit line of ur talking with him yesterday at cell. When u said him that u trust me more..the akash. thanksfully i am for u,rais. I will keep ur belief.
I cant stop worry baut u, please sms, calling or email me asap.
Ur CC
Sunny
I replied his email with uploaded a video given by martin and sent it to him. And 4 minutes after i got a sms from sunny.
Sunny : meet me tom on time at 7 am at city park.
I felt so frustation and so tired..what so bad and hard day those day said me on my heart. I remember that video, video who recorded a conversation between kiresha, veronica, fatima, john and sunny in his faculty. John and fatima asked sunny baut his relationship with me and attacked him with silly question baut his attitude with me. veronica, fatima nd john are senior student who ever close to sunny at SO. They told him that i was so innocent and very young junior student that cant be played and broken heart by him. it was bad...how comes they interupt my matter with sunny and how did they know that sunny ever kissed my forehead and huggled me, akash made all of this or they wanted to break that thing that i had and kept much between me and sunny. Abaut what sunny said to them,,,it hurt me more. He told and acted like i was a weak girl i memorized him to his dead ex gf in london. He succeseded convince them that we were a good friend and amucked them to fitna him like that. he made them scarify at last and locked their mouth.
I tried to pray alot and asked more power to ALLAH and wish everything would be ok........................